... NO CONSISTEN EXERCISE!!! Being the sort of person who usually forces myself to exercise everyday ... (no I'm not one of the exercise enthusiasts - yet), it's been raining every evening and morning, forcing me and my exercise team to cancel our daily morning excursions up Gasing Hill and I must say that I do miss it. I would, of course, never admit this to anyone in the team... it would destroy my 'Garfield-like' persona *he he he*
But I must say that the RAIN has been very welcome ... it was absolutely stifling the week before it started raining ...
Speaking of which ... (yeah, I kinda realized it doesn't link :P ), this is what I'm thinking of tattooing on my left forearm ... nice yeah?
The heart represents me and the love that I have for the people in my life and the world. The angel's halo represents my Ah Mah, who's in Heaven now and probably doesn't think too much of this tattooing idea (he he he), the 8 stars represent 8 of the most important people in my life, and the sunburst signifies that I am sending all the love that I can out to the world, esp to people I know :) That's my Inner Anchor Point.
... I hate it when I wake up and I feel absolutely and totally drained of energy. I have been having some weird, funky dreams for the past week and they've left me absolutely and positively zonked out when I wake up. Right now, as I write this, I'm so yawning my ass off. I don't know if it has anything to do with the fact that I wake up early almost every morning, climb a big ass hill and sleep late. I've been changing my diet - to be more healthy, but it doesn't really seem to be giving me more energy as it's supposed to ... HMMMM.
... you know ... as I kept reading my Blog header ... and it ends with "Life becomes an act of giving." I am trouble with the fact that I don't know how and where to draw the line yet. I still feel that if I don't do this or if I don't do that, would that constitute giving less? or would it be considered, by my standards, what I deem enough? I have not drawn it out for myself what is and isn't enough.
note to self: think about this over this weekend.
Just finished a meeting @ The Office. Sure it was the usual meeting with the usual anecdotes and lessons that need to be dispensed and learnt, but I was uncomfortable because for the past two nights, I have finally figured out what was bothering me and why I couldn't sleep. I was anxious about The General talking to The Loner about going about on his own with regards to the pricing etc of The Principal's items, which of course is contrary to The Company's policy.
Guess what happened?
Two emails that I sent out - one to The Chinaman and one to The Principal were highlighted and I was lambasted for using strong words in the first one and for airing 'dirty laundry' in the other. The Loner however got away with just a slap on the wrist. Typical.
I seriously regret coming to work here in 2002, despite the occasional good thing that happens. I consider myself to be a strong team player, and I strongly believe that it is my work ethic and passion that got me promoted, not the fact that I am related to The General. It's like nothing can EVER go right here and I'm just getting really tired.
Being honest in the email circle of The Managers seems to be a farce simply because:
- Not one manager uses it seriously for communication anymore.
- Even when you're honest, you're not really allowed to be honest, your honesty must meet certain rules and standards before it is accepted by the other Managers. WTF.
One wonders what I'm still doing here right ... ? Well, I would leave except for the fact that The General just had major heart surgery, is planning on leaving his 'legacy' of The Company in my hands (which I was not consulted for because, I was the son who, as my brother termed it "The Loyal Golden Retriever" of The General and would do whatever he asked / said / demanded).
I love the OTHER people that are working here because they are hard working and loveable individuals, August 11th and The General and The Economist (occasionally) excluded. Maybe I'm just venting after being lambasted, persecuted (ok a bit drama, but you get the idea), but I feel pushed to the limit. Now, not only am I thrust back into Sales, I have to handle Marketing and the BOS (with August 11th and The Loner) and be able to do all that in record time. Fuck. Seriously? Seriously!
Geez.
This post was deleted after The General and the Ice Queen demanded that it be removed due to protocol. God Forbid the Mentor actually came to my blog and was offended by 3 fantastic pictures. *Note to self - no more entries with pictured of The General and The Ice Queen in the future.
... doing fine! :) He went to see Doc. Zainal yesterday and was given a clean bill of health and his heart is doing perfectly fine! :) Yay! We went to the Dragon-i at The Curve for celebration makan ... and the food was ... good I guess. I couldn't taste much because I was having a flu / head cold whatever but it was pretty decent. They even had this like call button thing for service, additional water or the bill. How modern eh? No more waving your arms around like a monkey in heat. :) ha ha ha ... we were also kinda celebrating The Agent's burpday. Also present was The Ice Queen. :) *pictures removed*
.... a bigger card for more debt. :P I'm so clearing my credit cards this year and maintaining a healthier financial relationship with them :)
... it's like I've got so much time ... I'm doing work sure ... and whilst waiting for stuff, I actually have time to blog ... he he he ... :)
Taken @ 5:45am in Langkawi ... OoO ...
Another one ... looks better small because it was taken with the W800i from Sony ... same as above.
... now for all of you who SAY you aren't addicted ... that would be the first sign of addiction. :)
I 'vehemently deny any allegations' that I am 'addicted' to Starbucks' Caffe Mocha :P (damn you!)
I'm not exactly a HUGE fan of teh tarik or any form of tea for that matter, but occassionally ... I get this unstoppable hankering for it and I dashed to the local mamak store this morning (much to the amusement of my colleagues because it's ALL that I could talk about for some reason) ... and YUM ...
I'm kinda loving this bathroom ... it looks very ... New York. Very ... minimalist. Nice? :)
I think so.
